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my mother's a fucker.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007 @ 10:55 PM
like wtf. the love that my mom always gave was just for show. Mom's favourite children are only my brothers. In my mom's mind, everything i also need to give in to my lil brother. I freaking hate this feeling. I know everyone will sure say his your lil bro what, just give in to him. he's just a small boy.. &blah. so what? have you guys ever see me beating him? have you guys ever see him beating&bullying me? the ans is no. what bullshit is that? what's e use of working hard? who will know my hardwork& effort? i got study, everyone say i didn't study. Mom's bias had already made me feel dissapointed. I don't like it when people compare me with others. My mom just love to compare me with everyone in e world. Everyone's so smart, nice but i am not. Just let ben&jon to be your children then.. I would rather not come into e world than to suffer now. i miss dad terribly. Dad loves me alot before his death. If dad's still around, he won't be as bias as mom. I wish mom has her reason for doing all this. But actions speak louder than words. just talk about my exams, mom wasn't worried at all. but after i told her e results, she started to worry saying that i might have to retain &stuff like that. So what if i retain? at least got school to study right. No matter what i do, all wrong. jon&ben do, all correct. whatever. i'd enough of all this shits. Just now, she just fucking ask me to let ben play e laptop again. I'm going cruise already. &he fucking dont let me use? He can play for e whole day tmr like nobody's business but i cant. but mum still let him play. what fuck is this? i just scold fuck in front of my mom&aunty just now. I dont care. they wanna whack me or what, go ahead. i'm feeling very angry&dissapointed. everyone's mom treat them so good. but what about my mom? brother needs more money to go out, why can't i? everything i need to buy using my own money. everyone says that i'm rich, actually i'm not. i'm just a super duper poor girl. everyday, just live with my lonely life. i mix around with friends, ask me not to mix with so&so. they're my friends, not yours. just now our conver in e room: mum:"let him play e laptop." Me:" fucking bias sial.(super dulan tune)" mum just went quiet. me to glenn:"fuck off lah! x2" because he was blocking my way. then i went into my aunt's room. aunt kept talking to me. but i just kept quiet &then... me:" i dont feel like going cruise" aunt:"why?" me:"because mum's fucking bias. Everything also let him play. x2. like wtf" both went quiet.. Theend. dont wish to talk about my fucking mom anymore. good bye. |
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